Today was the Madou Gathering for Mana's birthday... Today was both a depressing and fun day. I woke up to find that my son had gotten a really bad flu and had to be taken to the ER. He was at the ER from 9am to 4PM, and I was worrying the whole time. Luckily, he was alright but he needed Xrays and IV bags. My girlfriend stayed at the hospital with him as I took a train back to her house to get ready for the concert. Normally for Moi dix Mois concerts, like I always write, is that me and all my friends would get ready together and go hours in advance, but this time I was getting ready for the concert alone, worrying the whole time even though they said he was okay. He didn't have to stay over night, and if he did I wouldn't of left. He just had to stay an hour or two more to finish his IV and get some medicine.
When I reached her home, since I barely have any Moitie still, I wore my Iron Gate OP as a blouse with my Holy Queen corset skirt, black lace up Moitie socks, platform Moitie shoes, and a few Moitie jewelry items. I wore a long black wig and put a few blue roses in it since I have holy queen black x blue.
You know why I used my Iron Gate as a blouse? I only own five Moitie blouses right now and none are really 'fancy'.
As I was doing my make up, my girlfriend and my son had came home. Me and my girlfriend originally were going to go to the concert together, but with this happening she stayed to watch over him.
Once I was done I left by 5:30 and got there right before it started, 6PM. When I got there, I saw a few girls I knew but I didn't really say hi because they didn't recognize me.
When I got in, I just kind of stood in the back since I didn't bother to go to the front. I've heard their songs many times, seen all their concerts.. it was getting old after a while. As the concert started, people in the back were pushing to get through and screaming Mana's name. I stood there, watching them and sighing to myself.
Within thirty minutes of the concert, I started to get bored and wanted to leave. My ears were hurting from all the girls in the back screaming. Then suddenly a girl in front of me asked me if I was alright; I guess I looked upset or something. I then ended up being pushed closer to the front. I just stood there and watched them. It was then time for the "DIX" dance. I wanted to do it but I was quite tired and I was so squished, it was hard to move my arms. I did it the first time then I just kind of stopped.
I started to feel really depressed and sad within the middle of the concert and tried to push myself through the large crowd. The concert tonight was at Shibuya O-West, which is a big live house.
I kept pushing myself through until I could reach the back again and just stood there. When the concert was done, I looked at the merch. table and pondered over buying anything. I decided getting nothing and just leaving.
As I walked out, one girl wearing full Moitie came up to me and I realized who she was. She was Betsy, a girl I had met back in 2009 at a Moi dix Mois concert in America. We talked for a little then asked me what was wrong.
I told her all about what happened to my house and what happened today and such. A lot of personal things have been going on so I have been quite depressed lately.
I wanted to enjoy tonights concert but it just didn't appeal to me.
We went out to eat after the concert and a few other girls in full Moitie ended up walking in too. It was nice seeing her again. I hadn't seen her in so long...
Later I ended up going to a book store and purchasing a new SHOXX magazine. The concert list looks pretty good in there. I think I want to take a break from seeing Mana for now and seeing other bands, like Dir en Grey who I haven't seen in ages.
I wouldn't mind seeing Kaya again too...
Currently I am in Shibuya still and it is quite late. I hope everyone else enjoyed the concert.
